Hye..Hallooo...
Assalamualaikum.......

i'm writing dis title bcoz i read someone blog dat she wrote about her father..
she lost her father this year n wrote dat that will be the last meeting between her and her dad..
and based on her post,she told dat she never got to knew her father as her parent divorced since she still in baby..
that entry really touched me and i will not share the link bcoz i respect her..
n let her blog be my secret..
n when i read her entry/post...i keep thinking about my dad..
n i felt a little bit jealous towards her..

i also lost my dad since i was a baby...
he died due of leukemia..a disease dat usually causing death at the end..
i never ever got to know him and saw him since small..
i dunno how he is..how 's his look..how's his attitude..

why i jealous??..
coz at least she still can saw/met her dad even her dad not with her..
coz at least she got to know his face..
coz at least she still can went to his funeral n kiss her dad before her dad dikebumikan..
coz at least she still can touch her dad for the last time...

i wish i have a time like dat..
i wish i can meet my dad one fine day..
i always wish dat even noe i cant..
when i was a kid, i always make sumtin bad..just bcoz i wish my dad will scold me..even in my dream..
i always want my dad comes to my dream..advise me..or say sumtin to me..
but it never happen to me..
sometimes i always think, am i the cause of my father's death..
coz when i was born,he's gone...

i also always think dat..
how's my life if my dad still alive..
getting better or not..
will i being the youngest and only daughter in this family..
will i being what i like now...

However...
i never get angry with my mum coz she's married with my stepfather..
i feel blessed as i can saw how a father look like..
even he's not my real father but he always gave his best to being my father..
Thanks Ayah..

n for my dad..
Aboh..
al-fatihah...
May ur soul in peace..
Love u even i dun get to know u..

p/s : crying a little bit when wrote dis entry..
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Hye..Hallooo...
Assalamualaikum.......

i'm writing dis title bcoz i read someone blog dat she wrote about her father..
she lost her father this year n wrote dat that will be the last meeting between her and her dad..
and based on her post,she told dat she never got to knew her father as her parent divorced since she still in baby..
that entry really touched me and i will not share the link bcoz i respect her..
n let her blog be my secret..
n when i read her entry/post...i keep thinking about my dad..
n i felt a little bit jealous towards her..

i also lost my dad since i was a baby...
he died due of leukemia..a disease dat usually causing death at the end..
i never ever got to know him and saw him since small..
i dunno how he is..how 's his look..how's his attitude..

why i jealous??..
coz at least she still can saw/met her dad even her dad not with her..
coz at least she got to know his face..
coz at least she still can went to his funeral n kiss her dad before her dad dikebumikan..
coz at least she still can touch her dad for the last time...

i wish i have a time like dat..
i wish i can meet my dad one fine day..
i always wish dat even noe i cant..
when i was a kid, i always make sumtin bad..just bcoz i wish my dad will scold me..even in my dream..
i always want my dad comes to my dream..advise me..or say sumtin to me..
but it never happen to me..
sometimes i always think, am i the cause of my father's death..
coz when i was born,he's gone...

i also always think dat..
how's my life if my dad still alive..
getting better or not..
will i being the youngest and only daughter in this family..
will i being what i like now...

However...
i never get angry with my mum coz she's married with my stepfather..
i feel blessed as i can saw how a father look like..
even he's not my real father but he always gave his best to being my father..
Thanks Ayah..

n for my dad..
Aboh..
al-fatihah...
May ur soul in peace..
Love u even i dun get to know u..

p/s : crying a little bit when wrote dis entry..
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